The dreams
With hands reaching through holes (screams echo in my head)
Whipping back the outstretched hands that rip at my clothes
With tears streaming down my eyes, I watch the twisted
Faces go by—tormented by things I cannot see…
Tortured by demons laughing at me.
I call to You, Your saving grace and beg that You
Set me free, let me be where I have found peace from
These dreams—visions—nightmares
That will not go away and linger when my eyes are open
To see these faces in plain day hidden within the grain of life
As others walk by to blind to see, to blind to care what lies there
His playground grows large as we sit back and shutter
At lost hope when few believe…will they see the warning?
When they are blind, will they see the signs?
Even those who do believe have little faith in humanity
And then there is me—too scared to sleep and see more.
I close my eyes and see twisted faces go by and feel
The whipping hands that try grab hold
I will not go! I will not go! I WILL NOT GO!
To him like memories that linger in dreams
I state again it is not he that bestowed upon me
A cursed blessing to see the tormented dead
Reaching, seeking answers to prayers only You can save.
Judgmental Father forgive me, forgive those who seek forgiveness
Yet do not know the words for they have never been shown love.
And in these twisted faces I see the children
Who are not meant to be there, little hands reaching through
Tiny holes, they do not know and so is it not wrong to
Let the innocent suffer the fate of their fathers.
As it was He who said let not the children suffer
Though they do and who, who is to step up and say
That it is us that make it this way. And so I sit and
Cry with burning eyes as I watch them go by
Grinning at the pain they cause and lies told. THE LIES!
And promises tie bonds that keep them down.
One more time, just one more time—I try—I try
To close my eyes and yet the twisted faces go by
Screams echoing in my head—the dead
And reaching hands rip at my clothes seeking
Keeping me in fear of sleep I so desperately need
And forgive me Father but maybe you don’t see—I believe
For I have felt you gentle touch wrap me up
In love when I saw none, so I ask you release me
From these dreams—visions—nightmares
That haunt me, taunting me as I wake with
Screams that echo in my head, I said, I say
I pray and still I close my eyes and see twisted faces
Go by calling to me, reaching, ripping at my clothes.
Should I go? I wonder sometimes that it might be me
The You sent to set them free, but how they scream
And beg yet utter no words. Tortured souls that cannot go
Cannot know what they do not see. So why do they see me?
And here I sit and wait and wait for yet another night
To come with beating, screaming sounds that pound
Inside my head, I breathe deep breaths and hope
Hope and pray that this day I will close my eyes and not
See the twisted faces go by or feel the hands whipping
Ripping at my clothes that tonight I will only know
A place where peace sings to me a lullaby from a time
Where my memory is faded
My Love
As I lay my head upon my pillow I take a breath
Bury my head into the memory that is your chest
Your warm embrace, how I miss your kiss
Gentle upon my forehead as you say good night
And tell me you love me and I cry
Tears of joy that you are here a part of me
A part of my life and not just a dream
My heart skips a beat at the joy you bring
How I miss you, your voice, and your touch
Miss you lying by my side wanting more
My love my love I miss your embrace
Like a blanket of peace you envelope me
In warmth, love and security through time
And though for the moment you are gone
I feel your love surrounding me, soft kisses
Tingling my soul at the thought of your touch
Your warm caress like soft breezes on a summer eve
And kisses as gentle as a spring rain
My Guardian
Turning times like wind
carrying a new season
I watch and wait as I've waited
He came and called
Told me secrets about the future
and shared memories
From the past--my guardian returned
In a dream He held
My hand to give me strength
Allowed me to let go
Of the pain the others left behind
scars that haunt my heart
Let tears flow like rain that cleanses
the soul they came down
In sheets eroding fears
melting away nightmares.
Grace
He came down upon me in a glimmer of bright light.
Surrounding me with an overwhelming peace -smiling.
A hand outstretched—a love touching my soul.
Bringing strength where there is fear.
Hope where there is none.
A lost soul wandering in darkness
Yet shielded by His grace